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Dear Abby: At the age of 15 I was raped by my first boyfriend. It’s how I lost my virginity. Shortly afterward, I became severely depressed and bulimic. I blocked my trauma until 11 years later, when I had a flashback. I sought out a therapist and have been seeing him for the past six months.

I feel so much resentment and anger toward my family for not having helped me through this difficult time. They didn’t know about the rape, but they knew about my eating disorder, and I’m sure they must have noticed my depressed mood. They simply looked the other way, and I was offered no help whatsoever.

I am angry with my mother especially, because she has always been detached and critical of me. I’m afraid to tell her what happened for fear of being blamed. She has now been diagnosed with cancer, and I’m afraid she’ll die before I get the courage to tell her. What can I do?

Angry in California

Dear Angry: It might be helpful to look more carefully at the reasons why you are angry with your family. It’s unfair to blame them for not recognizing something they were never told. It is not uncommon for teenagers to withdraw to some extent in order to establish their own identities, apart from their parents. Your parents may have thought that was what you were doing.

As to your eating disorder, I remember a time in the not-too-distant past when little was known about anorexia and bulimia. It wasn’t until after the death of recording artist Karen Carpenter that media attention focused on how serious and life-threatening an eating disorder could be.

This is not to excuse your mom for her inability to be the parent you needed while growing up. It’s important that you work with your therapist on how to talk to her about your feelings. It shouldn’t be done in an accusatory way, and you should not fear being blamed for your rape. It wasn’t your fault you were assaulted, and no one should be able to make you feel guilty for being a victim — not even your mother — who, I am sure, will be shocked by your revelation.

Dear Abby: My ex-husband, “Charles,” is dying, and we have decided to get remarried before he dies so he won’t be alone at the end. (And also so I can receive his VA benefits when he’s gone.) Is this morally wrong? I do take care of him, but not all the time because Charles likes living with his uncle and will remain there after we marry. I guess I just have a little guilt trip going on.

Guilt Trip in Texas

Dear Guilt Trip: Charles earned his benefits. I see nothing morally wrong with people providing for someone they care for after their death. Unless Charles was coerced into his generosity, I can’t see why you should feel guilty.

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